The process of recovery will involve separating in some way from your eating disorder and the behaviours it demands. This separation, or maybe even the thought of "leaving" or giving up your eating disorder, will cause you anxiety. It is common to everyone who has an eating disorder and contemplates recovery. If it wasn't so, people would recover much more easily and quickly. Getting through the anxiety of separating from your eating disordered behaviours and emotions is necessary to be free of the torment of being unwell and stuck in your life. My suggestion is to find strategies that help you manage anxiety whilst you are strengthening your healthy self so that you are able to fully recover and leave the ED behind. It is hard to imagine life without your disorder if you are continually afraid that you will "lose control" . isn't it ironic that the fact is you have already lost control since the Eating Disorder is influencing your every thought and dictating behaviour? Get through the anxiety of separating and gain control once more. You can do it.
Founded TRED in July 2011 to give encouragement and hope to people in Tasmania who are seeking recovery from an Eating disorder.